Saturday, November 7, 2015

Let Go

Have you ever listened to a song from your past and it gives you "the feelings"? Or if you close your eyes you can almost see the past memories and get goose bumps just thinking about it? Yeah we all have those songs. I'm lucky enough to have a few. Basically the whole soundtrack from Garden State does that for me.

I was listening to Adele radio on Pandora earlier in the week and "Let Go" by Frou Frou came on. I haven't heard that song in a good few years. So it really took me back on that rainy afternoon. I was driving so I couldn't really just close my eyes and see the images but I had many flash backs. It's funny how much things change from when you are 16 or 17. I felt so alive. Recently my sister that in high school said to me.... "You are Brooke Davis and i'm Haley James." Which is a One Tree Hill reference (we are rewatching on Netflix right now). I used to wish I never ventured out as much as I did... But now I am thankful. I am thankful for the memories I have made and the people I have met along the way.

When I close my eyes and think of the time of my life that "Let Go" remind me of I see a lot of my friend Porter (who has now passed... I hopefully one day will have the words to write about that). I can still see our group of friends... Me, Porter, Evan, Blake, Wells... a few others. Nights of me staying out too late and doing things I shouldn't of been doing... Or even nights just sitting on Porter's porch talking about our hopes and dreams. It takes me back to video broadcasting when we had to edit videos and the soundtrack was playing in the backgrounds... A time so simple and I didn't even know it.

Another one to take me back is Taking Back Sunday.. It was the coolest "punk" band at the time.. I dated this guy that all the skaters wanted to date... looking back I still don't why he dated me... We would just lay on his bed for hours and just listen to their CD's. I mean hours upon hours. Music brought us together and is probably the main reason we stayed together. Their words spoke to both of us. Side note: I have yet to see TBS.. I had a ticket and got grounded in HS for skipping school. And boyfriend talked about above went in my place. And I hated him for it (obviously I have not recovered).

Cashing Cars by Snow Patrol is another one... that one reminds me of the time I looked over  at my high school sweetheart an I wondered if I would ever love him the way the song talked about, and well it turned out I loved him even more than the song talked about. And this one deserves their own post.

More than anything I am thankful so many songs take me to back to so many great memories. I think maybe I get taken back to high school so much because that's where I have learned the most life lessons in my life. That's the time that I had the best friends in my life. I had the best memories. My first time falling in love. The first time I thought I was in love. The time I learned some of my life's toughest trials. I was the most alive. I love Porter for that. He always made sure I was alive and really loving my life. Even if I wasn't with him. He was one of my greatest friends of all.

For anyone reading this there are many songs and people i'm forgetting to mention. There is this one person that song's remind me of him but we never got enough in person time to really have a specific song to make me feel him... I have songs that I listen to that remind me of him... But not really any that give me the feeling because we never shared a song in person together. And I hate that.

What song's give you "the feeling"?

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